Except maybe a hospital room where you’ve been cared for and started to feel better than you have for the last 7 months. We were released today and though Kev and I were ecstatic, Ava was hesitant. I’m not sure if it’s the leukemia or not, but since getting ill Ava has developed anxiety and started having panic attacks. She gets worked up over what may happen and then gets nervous she may make herself sick. That’s what happened today. She was so anxious about leaving her amazing nurses and relying on us to care for her she spent much of the day anticipating what could happen.
We did get the opportunity to meet fellow cancer warrior Meaghan and her mom Maura. They were so sweet and understanding when she started crying about going home. It’s so nice give AJ a chance meet a fellow teen who has gone through this and come out on the other side. After our short visit with the Kilners Ava’s godmother arrived and helped us prepare for discharge. Kathryn and I don’t get to see each other often so it was great to spend time with her. AJ was glad to have her there to chat with me and keep me from fretting over her for too long.
Once we got home she spent a little time with Wesley, went for a walk, and is now fast asleep. I’m hopeful a good night sleep in her own bed will do a world of good, Lord knows she deserves it.